August 4, 2012

Truth

Maybe I should save this post for Sunday because it’s a confession, but what makes confessing so great is coming clean when it feels most necessary. And right now is the most necessary time.

This sounds all dramatic, huh? Well it kind of is in Katie’s world…

I start graduate school in 2.5 weeks. And when I say ‘graduate school’ I really mean—I start a two-year program where I take classes and fulfill part time employment for Ohio University as a graduate assistant in student affairs.

The program is called College Student Personnel and Higher Education, yeah no one has really ever heard of it, but it’s the program Matt is in and a program I am really excited to be a part of, but guess what? I’m scared.

I’ve never been very good at keeping my anxiety in check. Look here, here and here to read more about my struggle with an anxiety disorder. I suck at change and I really suck at being ‘uncomfortable’. And how boring would life be if things never changed and I was always comfortable? Boring, I know. Someone please tell my brain that it’s okay to take on big new scary things. Okay, good.

So that’s my confession. I’m scared. I’m loosing sleep over it. I’m fearing the unknown, I’m scared of failure; of giving it all I got and still not succeeding.

Anxiety is so stupid. So why not help me kick it’s butt and send it far away? Pray for me? And for this next new adventure called grad school….

Yes, this is an accurate picture of how I feel:

 

9 comments:

  1. I will definitely be praying for you girl :)

    Sarah

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  2. I know several people who have gone through that program who have loved it and you have the experience of your hubby, so I know you will be successful! What department are you going to be a GA in? I smell a blogger date at Baker Center this fall...

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  3. even though this post is a serious confession, I laughed at the cuteness of the picture :) GOOD LUCK!!! You will be amazing

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    1. Bahaha! I know right? Fantastic photo :)

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    1. Thank you! Let's hope. You can be sure I'll blog about it :) haha

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  5. You can do it!!! God is bigger but will definitely be praying for peace and focus!

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    1. Thank you! Yes, I just need some reminders and some prayers! :)

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  6. Oh girl, I could not understand anymore! Ha, we really did write about the same thing! I deal with anxiety and I'm always terrified of the unknown, so I completely and utterly understand! Trust me. We're in this together!

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