Maybe I should save this post for Sunday because it’s a confession, but what makes confessing so great is coming clean when it feels most necessary. And right now is the most necessary time.
This sounds all dramatic, huh? Well it kind of is in Katie’s world…
I start graduate school in 2.5 weeks. And when I say ‘graduate school’ I really mean—I start a two-year program where I take classes and fulfill part time employment for Ohio University as a graduate assistant in student affairs.
The program is called College Student Personnel and Higher Education, yeah no one has really ever heard of it, but it’s the program Matt is in and a program I am really excited to be a part of, but guess what? I’m scared.
I’ve never been very good at keeping my anxiety in check. Look here, here and here to read more about my struggle with an anxiety disorder. I suck at change and I really suck at being ‘uncomfortable’. And how boring would life be if things never changed and I was always comfortable? Boring, I know. Someone please tell my brain that it’s okay to take on big new scary things. Okay, good.
So that’s my confession. I’m scared. I’m loosing sleep over it. I’m fearing the unknown, I’m scared of failure; of giving it all I got and still not succeeding.
Anxiety is so stupid. So why not help me kick it’s butt and send it far away? Pray for me? And for this next new adventure called grad school….
Yes, this is an accurate picture of how I feel: